What a great way to start my day.

So frustrated.
After my hotmail account was hacked, i had the account cancelled.
Well, the hacker reactivated it.
Seriously, so gutless.
So i've changed to password to something just random and then deleted the account again.
If they figure out the new password and then have it reactivated again then i've going to have a fit.

Seriously love opi's ridge filler.

While changing my nail polish, i noticed that my nails look much healthier than they've looked in possibly two years.
Perhaps this is because i've started to use the ridge filler as a base?
I've seen a serious turn around in my nails appearance and could not be happier.

And now my legs are sore.

I've had quite a long day of shopping. 
From 1pm to 8pm straight.
I met up with a friend during the day but i had no luck except for a pair of cheap anthropologie earrings.  Nothing special but they're nice for day wear.


After catching up with Brooke, i met up with my sister for some REAL shopping. We started by getting my bridesmaid dress.
So stressful.
The store, Fashion Crimes on queen west, didn't sell anything small enough for me so we just picked the one we liked the best and will get it taken in.


I was actually kind of happy that everything was too big for me, and i know that sounds body dysmorphic ish, but hear me out. My body size normally is fairly small, so generally i need to wear the smaller sizes. But, with all my medicine, i've gained about ten pounds of water weight. It's extremely uncomfortable and just sits there on me like chub because i have zero muscle tone. So, i've had no idea what's going on with my body. Like i know my butts filled out...I think. But so have my thighs. And NOTHING has happened to my boobs, but my stomach is for sure affected. But, if i'm still small enough that Fashion Crimes dresses are all too big, then i must not have had a huge change in body size, right? I've been having horrible thoughts of having to buy all new clothes because nothing fits and i can no longer wear any of the things i already own.
So the weight is mostly just uncomfortable....good or bad thing?


Also while shopping, i bought myself a black bandage dress that i may wear for new years eve, and a red sweater that i've wanted for months but wanted to wait until it went on sale. Only the aritzia on queen was carrying it (trust me, i shopped on bloor, queen, AND at eatons today) and the only one they had was one in my size. Half price.
SO HAPPY!
Waiting for it to be discounted actually worked for once. Usually they sell out of all the sizes i wear.
On top of this i got a cheap blue eyeliner for the eye makeup thing i want to do for new years. I did it for halloween but didn't have the right colour or the right tools at the time.
This time i'll get it right!
Trust me, it's tricky to do.
See below:

This time i'll be prepared!

Worth the money

So I finally tried out the Dr Brandt pore vacuum mask.

Not exactly what i expected. Don't get me wrong though, I still like it!
I thought it would be a thick cream, but instead its a very thin lotion. It's great. As it dries it gets very tight and pulls all the oil from our pores. I don't have many issues with blackheads or clogged pores, but my skin looked great after. When i looked at my pores close up, it looked so much cleaner.
If you use it, try to have some biore strips handy. They would be perfect to use afterwards to get perfectly clear pores.

Happy distractions that will help me sleep.

If you read the post below this one and get freaked, just watch these. It helps.

The Toilet Store:

The Smileyface Line

Mr. President

So polite.

Caution: Starts light then gets depressing.

Due to my iron whatsit, my nails are in terrible shape. It's just pathetic/gross. So today while out i bought the opi ridge filler.

I love it. I painted a medium brown colour over top and it's gone on amazingly smooth for once. 
Happy.


Little things like this cheer me up and i definitely needed it.


My family had my grandparents and my aunt and uncle over for dinner and things were happy until talk moved to more rural topics like cottaging and farming. My mom decided that was a moment to tell a scaring/terribly sad story of my brother in laws grandfather.


He was a farmer and his sons and brother would help him out on occasion. On one specific occasion, his thresher stopped working and had not been working for a while. When they went to work on it, he fell into it, it turned on at that moment, and he was thrashed to death within an instant.


I'm so horrified at this story and have been feeling ill all evening because of it. When my mother was telling it i actually gasped and had a mini freak out when she said he fell in. 


Anyone who knows me knows i'm not one for emotional expressions of any sort. Thats how upset i got over it.


So now i'm up late and watching friends because i'm upset and scared to sleep because i just know i'll have nightmares about it. And while this happened to my brother in laws grandfather many many years ago when he was still a fairly young man, it still horrifies me. I just imagine his sons having to go home and tell their mother what happened. With such a traumatizing accident, how does one even cope?


Stories like this always make me appreciate life so much more.


My uncle followed this one up with one about a man he knows who also had a mishap with farming equipment. He fell in, it somehow started up without warning as well, and he lost a leg and an arm. 


I somehow doubt i'm getting any sleep tonight. 

Whoever hacked my old hotmail account is disgusting and a huge creep.

Fuck off stalker.

Get a life.